This is what opened spots look like the next day! It hurts a bit…

This is what opened spots look like the next day! It hurts a bit to bend my wrists but no big deal. I feel like it’s all healing quickly already which is honestly all I can really ask for (I’m happy with this). So for those of you wanting to attempt moisturizer withdrawal, this is a message that you don’t have to worry about using any of the witch hazel and other methods. Do them if you want to and you think it will help, of course-all I’m saying is that you will probably heal pretty quickly by yourself if you can manage to leave it alone (that was difficult). I just kept a paper towel with me the rest of the night and blotted the spots every now and then. I know that when I opened up those spots I immediately wanted to take a dss bath but I couldn’t at the time, and then I ended up not wanting/needing one. I am 6 months into TSW though, so I figure it should be this way for me at this point. For others who are having a stronger rebound or are just starting into their TSW and MW these methods for control and comfort will probably be more important. 

I’m going to make a post that shows what my skin was like before I decided to stop steroids because I stopped at a time where my skin was mostly under control and I think that might’ve made a difference in how my rebound was this time around. When I first went through TSW, the rashes spread throughout my body pretty quickly, whereas this time around it has managed to stay in my upper body and it already seems to be getting better. Of course, there’s always a possibility that I could experience flares but it just seems like this withdrawal period is not going to be like last time. I was almost sure it was going to be worse when I stopped taking steroids because by that time I had been slathering strong steroids on pretty much my whole body for over a year. But when I stopped taking steroids I had already been tapering down how often I used it, and the spots that fought the steroids the most caused me to look up info which led me to itsan. When I showed my doctor the info with intent to quit steroids he asked me how often I was using the creams and told me that using a couple times a week for the rest of my life would be fine. (Even if that was the case, who wants to be dependent on that for the rest of their life? I went into this withdrawal with the idea that I could potentially be cured and not have to use steroids ever again and I figured I had endured the pain before and it would be worth it to give it a shot and see what happens. If it doesn’t work out, that’s fine, I’ll admit to the doctor that I was wrong and follow his orders. But I already feel better than I did when I was still using the steroids. I can heal all on my own pretty well, no steroids necessary.)

via tumblr http://bit.ly/2INIFbK published on March 22, 2014 at 03:32PM

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I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my…

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my wrists. 😦  I’m a little upset with myself, but surprisingly I don’t feel too bad about it. They barely oozed and I patted the spots with a paper towel and they dried up, so that’s something on the positive side. Any time I take my long sleeves and/or wrist warmers off, I get compelled to scratch. I think I’m just going to live in my clothes for a while. Ignore my skin altogether. Seriously, every time I go to check my inner elbows I’ll say, “It’s doing better,” and then somehow I end up scratching it intensely and have to say “Whoops, never mind.”

Tried to take some pictures to show how scratching affected the rest of my arms – mostly creating really dry skin or raising and reddening the rashy skin.  

Once I finally got myself to stop scratching and preoccupied myself with taking and uploading pictures, things calmed down. I wonder if there’s a trigger that causes my scratchfests or if it really is just because I took off my sweater and wrist warmers.

Do any of you take antihistamines when you get too itchy? I sometimes take them for some relief if I can even get any, but I don’t actually have allergies. I read somewhere that itchiness is not only related to histamines but I didn’t read that far into it.

Finally downloaded some of the pictures I took along the process when I had a hiatus from blogging my progress, so I’ll be uploading those shortly.

Day 15 of Moisturizer Withdrawal, by the way. At this point I want to say that I am done with moisturizer withdrawal symptoms and am now dealing strictly with steroid withdrawal, but I’m still going to monitor my symptoms that seem to be related to mw. 

via tumblr http://bit.ly/2Vk3aTY published on March 21, 2014 at 04:32PM

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my…

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my wrists. 😦  I’m a little upset with myself, but surprisingly I don’t feel too bad about it. They barely oozed and I patted the spots with a paper towel and they dried up, so that’s something on the positive side. Any time I take my long sleeves and/or wrist warmers off, I get compelled to scratch. I think I’m just going to live in my clothes for a while. Ignore my skin altogether. Seriously, every time I go to check my inner elbows I’ll say, “It’s doing better,” and then somehow I end up scratching it intensely and have to say “Whoops, never mind.”

Tried to take some pictures to show how scratching affected the rest of my arms – mostly creating really dry skin or raising and reddening the rashy skin.  

Once I finally got myself to stop scratching and preoccupied myself with taking and uploading pictures, things calmed down. I wonder if there’s a trigger that causes my scratchfests or if it really is just because I took off my sweater and wrist warmers.

Do any of you take antihistamines when you get too itchy? I sometimes take them for some relief if I can even get any, but I don’t actually have allergies. I read somewhere that itchiness is not only related to histamines but I didn’t read that far into it.

Finally downloaded some of the pictures I took along the process when I had a hiatus from blogging my progress, so I’ll be uploading those shortly.

Day 15 of Moisturizer Withdrawal, by the way. At this point I want to say that I am done with moisturizer withdrawal symptoms and am now dealing strictly with steroid withdrawal, but I’m still going to monitor my symptoms that seem to be related to mw. 

via tumblr http://bit.ly/2Vk3aTY published on March 21, 2014 at 04:32PM

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my…

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my wrists. 😦  I’m a little upset with myself, but surprisingly I don’t feel too bad about it. They barely oozed and I patted the spots with a paper towel and they dried up, so that’s something on the positive side. Any time I take my long sleeves and/or wrist warmers off, I get compelled to scratch. I think I’m just going to live in my clothes for a while. Ignore my skin altogether. Seriously, every time I go to check my inner elbows I’ll say, “It’s doing better,” and then somehow I end up scratching it intensely and have to say “Whoops, never mind.”

Tried to take some pictures to show how scratching affected the rest of my arms – mostly creating really dry skin or raising and reddening the rashy skin.  

Once I finally got myself to stop scratching and preoccupied myself with taking and uploading pictures, things calmed down. I wonder if there’s a trigger that causes my scratchfests or if it really is just because I took off my sweater and wrist warmers.

Do any of you take antihistamines when you get too itchy? I sometimes take them for some relief if I can even get any, but I don’t actually have allergies. I read somewhere that itchiness is not only related to histamines but I didn’t read that far into it.

Finally downloaded some of the pictures I took along the process when I had a hiatus from blogging my progress, so I’ll be uploading those shortly.

Day 15 of Moisturizer Withdrawal, by the way. At this point I want to say that I am done with moisturizer withdrawal symptoms and am now dealing strictly with steroid withdrawal, but I’m still going to monitor my symptoms that seem to be related to mw. 

via tumblr http://bit.ly/2Vk3aTY published on March 21, 2014 at 04:32PM

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my…

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my wrists. 😦  I’m a little upset with myself, but surprisingly I don’t feel too bad about it. They barely oozed and I patted the spots with a paper towel and they dried up, so that’s something on the positive side. Any time I take my long sleeves and/or wrist warmers off, I get compelled to scratch. I think I’m just going to live in my clothes for a while. Ignore my skin altogether. Seriously, every time I go to check my inner elbows I’ll say, “It’s doing better,” and then somehow I end up scratching it intensely and have to say “Whoops, never mind.”

Tried to take some pictures to show how scratching affected the rest of my arms – mostly creating really dry skin or raising and reddening the rashy skin.  

Once I finally got myself to stop scratching and preoccupied myself with taking and uploading pictures, things calmed down. I wonder if there’s a trigger that causes my scratchfests or if it really is just because I took off my sweater and wrist warmers.

Do any of you take antihistamines when you get too itchy? I sometimes take them for some relief if I can even get any, but I don’t actually have allergies. I read somewhere that itchiness is not only related to histamines but I didn’t read that far into it.

Finally downloaded some of the pictures I took along the process when I had a hiatus from blogging my progress, so I’ll be uploading those shortly.

Day 15 of Moisturizer Withdrawal, by the way. At this point I want to say that I am done with moisturizer withdrawal symptoms and am now dealing strictly with steroid withdrawal, but I’m still going to monitor my symptoms that seem to be related to mw. 

via tumblr http://bit.ly/2Vk3aTY published on March 21, 2014 at 04:32PM

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my…

I had a scratchfest when I got home today and ripped up my wrists. 😦  I’m a little upset with myself, but surprisingly I don’t feel too bad about it. They barely oozed and I patted the spots with a paper towel and they dried up, so that’s something on the positive side. Any time I take my long sleeves and/or wrist warmers off, I get compelled to scratch. I think I’m just going to live in my clothes for a while. Ignore my skin altogether. Seriously, every time I go to check my inner elbows I’ll say, “It’s doing better,” and then somehow I end up scratching it intensely and have to say “Whoops, never mind.”

Tried to take some pictures to show how scratching affected the rest of my arms – mostly creating really dry skin or raising and reddening the rashy skin.  

Once I finally got myself to stop scratching and preoccupied myself with taking and uploading pictures, things calmed down. I wonder if there’s a trigger that causes my scratchfests or if it really is just because I took off my sweater and wrist warmers.

Do any of you take antihistamines when you get too itchy? I sometimes take them for some relief if I can even get any, but I don’t actually have allergies. I read somewhere that itchiness is not only related to histamines but I didn’t read that far into it.

Finally downloaded some of the pictures I took along the process when I had a hiatus from blogging my progress, so I’ll be uploading those shortly.

Day 15 of Moisturizer Withdrawal, by the way. At this point I want to say that I am done with moisturizer withdrawal symptoms and am now dealing strictly with steroid withdrawal, but I’m still going to monitor my symptoms that seem to be related to mw. 

via tumblr http://bit.ly/2Vk3aTY published on March 21, 2014 at 04:32PM

Day 10 of Moisturizer Withdrawal Mostly only dealing with…

Day 10 of Moisturizer Withdrawal

Mostly only dealing with dryness and flakiness (and all-around rough skin). By Friday night my lips were not dry, and I have to say that this is the most important thing to me. In all my years I don’t think I ever thought I’d be able to live without vaseline or some other moisturizer to rub on my lips (in high school some girl tried to be mean to me by saying that it looked like my lips were going to fall off my face-it didn’t hurt because, well, she wasn’t wrong). When starting moisturizer withdrawal it was the incredibly dry, flaky lips that really got to me, but I decided to stick through it. On Friday night, celebrating my roommate’s birthday with incredibly flaky eyes but normal-looking lips (the skin around them is still rough/dry), I felt great. I think that the lips looking normal is more important in not looking so strange but I’m not sure why. (Maybe because it’s a focal point when people are talking?) I don’t know. All I’m saying is that even with my flaky eyes, I didn’t feel strange-looking or uncomfortable with my appearance at all. A little confidence goes a long way, it seems.

My lips have stayed on the better side so far, for which I am thankful. My skin is dry and rough all around, but not uncomfortable. As you can see, my wrist-wounds have healed and are now scabbed over. I have scratched at myself a little bit, being very careful not to open up the wounds again. Wearing the gloves and long sleeves is incredibly helpful. My fingers, which have been one of the itchiest places for me throughout my tsw, are healing pretty nicely and aren’t too itchy anymore. I can’t remember the last time my fingers were free of cuts. Every single crease in my fingers used to be cut open, and now I’ve only got A SINGLE SKIN SPLIT in my index finger, which has been painful but seems to be healing successfully. Aside from the little breaks I take to scratch, things are going extremely well. I’m not nearly as itchy as I had been prior to stopping moisturizers. And there’s barely any redness going on! My skin gets red when I’m in the dead sea salts bath, but once I dry the color evens out again. I was able to go out and not take my purse! I was able to go out without my moisturizers-my ‘security blanket.’ I feel free, and I hope this lasts. I feel so much more comfortable, that I can honestly say that if my eczema was never to go away, I’d still be okay living like this. This is doable. Hopefully through tsw I will continue to heal and be cured like we’ve been guaranteed. Either way, I feel so strong. I’ve gone through so much; I went through hell, and I never for a second imagined that my body could get me through it all on its own. I always thought my body was causing the problems! With steroids I’d been fighting my body instead of letting it do the fighting it needed to do. I’m so happy that I now have the support of my friends and family. My mom told me that I was going to cure myself. She may have just said that to make me feel better but I think she’s right. I’m so grateful for the information that people have put out there about eczema, steroid-induced eczema and the like. The healing process isn’t easy for anyone but knowing it’s a process we can get through makes it that much easier to bear. 

via tumblr http://bit.ly/2KVVCD3 published on March 16, 2014 at 05:00PM